I think it's happened to everyone that one day you're craving to meet this person only to find out it was an utter soul-crushing disappointment. However, I doubt that what I'm about to write here has happened to many people (or maybe it has, but I'm too antisocial to find out personally).
Imagine going home after finding out that this person wasn't or didn't act at all like you expected... You get home, think about it for a second and then move on, but for me it wasn't so easy. I experienced a series of short dreams interrupted with a sudden wake up, it goes as follows:
Dream 1:
I was in a random classroom in some kind of blend between uni and high school (my two IRL nightmares). I was lecturing a bully that I met elsewhere (neither in school or uni) about how much his own flaws made him pick on me, and I was actually winning the argument (to own my surprise), but it was a bitter victory, as I came to realise that he was not alone. In fact, this person I told you about a couple of lines above was next to one of the bully's friends, which in dream context was an assertion that this person was actually part of the bully circle of friends. Needless to say, this person's reaction was unperturbed, looking at me in shock (with a mix of shame and surprise in the eyes). I experienced the same kind of disappointment I felt in real life, since I was expecting this person (in the dream) to stand by me while I defended myself against the libel.
Dream 2:
Not much could be said about Dream 2 other than it was über bizarre. From what I remember, I has pre ordered some items from overseas (Japan to be exact). For some reason, instead of my actual address, I had written my uni one (a big WTF), but if that's not mental enough, the people who received it were a mix of acquaintances whom I don't really interact that much with (but I suspect them nonetheless). My package was unwrapped, unboxed, the booklets were scattered across a small table and while I was trying to put everything together (looking out for the most precious items that, to my surprise and disdain, were not found on that table) when suddenly this person appeared, although far away, but I was feeling so frustrated and alone, more so when this person's only reaction was a look of shock like before.
I had a couple of dreams more, but when I try to remember them, only rubbish comes to mind. Anyway, you might think that I have a full-blown sense of self-entitlement to actually expect this person to come to my rescue every time; that would be correct if this person had not been what I used tho think was one of the best friends I've ever had. We hadn't seen each other for three months or so, and while I wondered about this person's whereabouts, it seems my feelings weren't reciprocated, cause when I walked into this person by accident yesterday, I had to introduce myself almost in a cartoonish way to be noticed. I was so mad that I excused myself and said I needed to get home ASAP. The last think I heard was the cunt that was with this person at the moment giggling like an idiot, like making fun of me. Never expected something this trivial to become nightmare fuel... Oh, well...
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