Looking back, that was one post full of unnecessary hatred. I can't believe I wrote something so bitter... And about a friend! A quick fact about me: the only reason why such an antisocial (and proud) prick like myself has any friends is because the few people I talk to can be sure that the way I deal with them is pretty much uniform. What this means is that even though they might not always give their very best to me, I'll be there for them when they need me (unless I'm in the bathroom, playing videogames, etc. but it's the intention what counts). A lot of people would rather give out as they receive, but I honestly never truly cared deeply about something to develop a sense of self-entitlement to anything... Or so I thought!
The whole dream thing is rubbish, it's worth mentioning that I did have a Twilight Zone moment when I found a similar table in a similar spot in a similar building with similar people, all so similar to my dream, but I was able to control myself and nothing happened. Anyway, just talked to my mate on the phone and we agreed to meet by the end of the week, so I think it's time to stop being hot headed about irrelevant things that are so mundane. Time to man up!
Oh, by the way, that doesn't mean I'm 100% over the fact that the person who was talking to my mate did smirk at me and giggled like a twat. That cheeky little cunt.
Monday, November 24, 2014
Wednesday, November 19, 2014
Unraveling Expectations
I think it's happened to everyone that one day you're craving to meet this person only to find out it was an utter soul-crushing disappointment. However, I doubt that what I'm about to write here has happened to many people (or maybe it has, but I'm too antisocial to find out personally).
Imagine going home after finding out that this person wasn't or didn't act at all like you expected... You get home, think about it for a second and then move on, but for me it wasn't so easy. I experienced a series of short dreams interrupted with a sudden wake up, it goes as follows:
Dream 1:
I was in a random classroom in some kind of blend between uni and high school (my two IRL nightmares). I was lecturing a bully that I met elsewhere (neither in school or uni) about how much his own flaws made him pick on me, and I was actually winning the argument (to own my surprise), but it was a bitter victory, as I came to realise that he was not alone. In fact, this person I told you about a couple of lines above was next to one of the bully's friends, which in dream context was an assertion that this person was actually part of the bully circle of friends. Needless to say, this person's reaction was unperturbed, looking at me in shock (with a mix of shame and surprise in the eyes). I experienced the same kind of disappointment I felt in real life, since I was expecting this person (in the dream) to stand by me while I defended myself against the libel.
Dream 2:
Not much could be said about Dream 2 other than it was über bizarre. From what I remember, I has pre ordered some items from overseas (Japan to be exact). For some reason, instead of my actual address, I had written my uni one (a big WTF), but if that's not mental enough, the people who received it were a mix of acquaintances whom I don't really interact that much with (but I suspect them nonetheless). My package was unwrapped, unboxed, the booklets were scattered across a small table and while I was trying to put everything together (looking out for the most precious items that, to my surprise and disdain, were not found on that table) when suddenly this person appeared, although far away, but I was feeling so frustrated and alone, more so when this person's only reaction was a look of shock like before.
I had a couple of dreams more, but when I try to remember them, only rubbish comes to mind. Anyway, you might think that I have a full-blown sense of self-entitlement to actually expect this person to come to my rescue every time; that would be correct if this person had not been what I used tho think was one of the best friends I've ever had. We hadn't seen each other for three months or so, and while I wondered about this person's whereabouts, it seems my feelings weren't reciprocated, cause when I walked into this person by accident yesterday, I had to introduce myself almost in a cartoonish way to be noticed. I was so mad that I excused myself and said I needed to get home ASAP. The last think I heard was the cunt that was with this person at the moment giggling like an idiot, like making fun of me. Never expected something this trivial to become nightmare fuel... Oh, well...
Imagine going home after finding out that this person wasn't or didn't act at all like you expected... You get home, think about it for a second and then move on, but for me it wasn't so easy. I experienced a series of short dreams interrupted with a sudden wake up, it goes as follows:
Dream 1:
I was in a random classroom in some kind of blend between uni and high school (my two IRL nightmares). I was lecturing a bully that I met elsewhere (neither in school or uni) about how much his own flaws made him pick on me, and I was actually winning the argument (to own my surprise), but it was a bitter victory, as I came to realise that he was not alone. In fact, this person I told you about a couple of lines above was next to one of the bully's friends, which in dream context was an assertion that this person was actually part of the bully circle of friends. Needless to say, this person's reaction was unperturbed, looking at me in shock (with a mix of shame and surprise in the eyes). I experienced the same kind of disappointment I felt in real life, since I was expecting this person (in the dream) to stand by me while I defended myself against the libel.
Dream 2:
Not much could be said about Dream 2 other than it was über bizarre. From what I remember, I has pre ordered some items from overseas (Japan to be exact). For some reason, instead of my actual address, I had written my uni one (a big WTF), but if that's not mental enough, the people who received it were a mix of acquaintances whom I don't really interact that much with (but I suspect them nonetheless). My package was unwrapped, unboxed, the booklets were scattered across a small table and while I was trying to put everything together (looking out for the most precious items that, to my surprise and disdain, were not found on that table) when suddenly this person appeared, although far away, but I was feeling so frustrated and alone, more so when this person's only reaction was a look of shock like before.
I had a couple of dreams more, but when I try to remember them, only rubbish comes to mind. Anyway, you might think that I have a full-blown sense of self-entitlement to actually expect this person to come to my rescue every time; that would be correct if this person had not been what I used tho think was one of the best friends I've ever had. We hadn't seen each other for three months or so, and while I wondered about this person's whereabouts, it seems my feelings weren't reciprocated, cause when I walked into this person by accident yesterday, I had to introduce myself almost in a cartoonish way to be noticed. I was so mad that I excused myself and said I needed to get home ASAP. The last think I heard was the cunt that was with this person at the moment giggling like an idiot, like making fun of me. Never expected something this trivial to become nightmare fuel... Oh, well...
Sunday, November 2, 2014
Shiny Pidove!
While entries are being planed and or postponed, just wanted to share this:
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In the meantime of searching for a level 17 Timburr in the dark grass outside Pinwheel Forest, found this fellow. The thing is, save states come in handy when you don't want to fight random foes and just encounter what you're looking for. I was getting tired though, so once the repel effect wore off, a fight started et voilà! I'm not a big fan of Action Replay or any other method out there, not a critic either; however, must admit that legit are always welcome, despite its worthless IVs.
What do?
Well, if you would like to try this, all you need is an emulator supporting save states (double speed wouldn't hurt either); next step would be not standing on grass, go to an area free of grass and save your state there; then roam about randomly. If you're encountering the same critter over and over, just load your state and walk around the area without stepping on the grass, make a new save state and then dive into the grass!
This sorta generates a new number in the game memory, which is then processed into the next wild creature you'll see next... And if you're lucky (like me) the number might just trigger a shiny!
Based Save States
In the meantime of searching for a level 17 Timburr in the dark grass outside Pinwheel Forest, found this fellow. The thing is, save states come in handy when you don't want to fight random foes and just encounter what you're looking for. I was getting tired though, so once the repel effect wore off, a fight started et voilà! I'm not a big fan of Action Replay or any other method out there, not a critic either; however, must admit that legit are always welcome, despite its worthless IVs.
What do?
Well, if you would like to try this, all you need is an emulator supporting save states (double speed wouldn't hurt either); next step would be not standing on grass, go to an area free of grass and save your state there; then roam about randomly. If you're encountering the same critter over and over, just load your state and walk around the area without stepping on the grass, make a new save state and then dive into the grass!
This sorta generates a new number in the game memory, which is then processed into the next wild creature you'll see next... And if you're lucky (like me) the number might just trigger a shiny!
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