Say, you haven't "seen" this girl for 4 years when she suddenly decides to speak to you again.
Maybe i'm phrasing this the wrong way... I had seen her before, but she didn't see me at all, not even when i was right in front of her. Was i invisible? Hardly... Especially back in 2012 when i was overweight.
The problema is that, 4 years ago, there was chemistry between us, but not the romantic kind (which i didn't want anyway), we were Friends, or perhaps the correct word should be "allies"?
Yes, i don't think those exclude themselves mutually, but i do think they're quite different from each other. It's beyond silly trying to define the concept of friendship, so i'll just say that, for me, the main difference between and "ally" and a "friend" is that a friend necessarily enjoys engaging in conversations with you or maybe just even your presence; an ally, on the other hand, hangs out with you just when he or she has no other choice. If you're not convinced by my "divorce" of said notions, perhaps we could say that allies, the way i see it, are a lower tier of friendship (if not the lowest).
Following this thought, i could firmly say without regret that 4 years ago we were merely allies indeed, since she has her main group of friends whom which she consistently hangs around.
So what's the gist of it?
Well, one morning, the very day this post was created, she came up to me to discuss the main topic of the day and the only reasonable explanation as to why she did that is that we were the only two students in the classroom (i have the bad habit of arriving more than in time to everything). This shocked me deeply, as i never expected her to come to talk to me again, especially after i made the resolution not to talk to her again except when engaging in basic courtesy (hi, bye, thanks, etc.).
Now, that was some useless enecdote that won't change the world for good anytime.... However, something more sudden (or rather abrupt) happened right after class: as it turns out, i've always been surrounded by allies, which puts me in the ackward position to only engage in a conversarion when my existence is noticed at all. As it figures, this was the case. I besically bumped into two "friends" i haven't seen for a couple of years. One of them even came up with the reason why we hadn't noticed each other in class was that we sit too further apart.
Anyway, this post's been written a day after it happened (although i reserved the space the very day this happneded). I'm unning out of words (and time) regardless.
